Someone I knew closely and was very fond of, completed his lifetime yesterday. More than being sad, I am happy for him. Primarily because I am sure he is in much less pain now, and also because he completed all that he got his life for, quite successfully, even though he bore a lot of pain for it.
This is the first death I have seen closely in my life and it has left me deeply silent. Till a day ago, there was a person; a person I interacted with. Today there is a body. There is also a 'being', but there is no person. The person has disappeared as if it never existed. And there isn’t a way I can tell myself with conviction that this person ever existed. What proof can I believe in? If it really did exist, how can it disappear? Like a mirage!
Till yesterday there was pain and happiness. There were memories and opinions. There were preferences and limitations. There were relations and responsibilities. Now, on one hand there is just a body, the grossest form of reality, and on the other hand there is the felt-presence of a being, the subtlest form of reality. The person, persona, and the personality, that I thought were the prime characteristics of that being, have just vanished somewhere. There’s nothing in between the two grossest and subtlest states. All that supposedly existed in between, did it really ever exist?
In such a state of confused-bewildered and happy-sad silence, I probably cannot correctly state what I am experiencing. To conclude, I would just say Om Namah Shivaya. And lots of love, prayers and blessings to the person/being I knew.
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