Rested Pace

Time is too short, to worry about goals,
And neither too long to sit and refrain,
Time is too short to do it all,
And neither too long, to let it pass and befall,

What can one really achieve?
What has one ever really achieved?

Walking in the cloud of illusion,
In and out of sunshine,
I move holding Thy finger,
Making figures and figurines,
Images I can't fathom,

But the world may see,

Living it Now, as if for ever,

As if life before had never been,

Covered heights, but not yet there,
Braving the cold, when all is bare,

Singing songs of grace,

Living words of wisdom,

In sweet love and devotion,
Amidst hard work and commotion,

Even what matters the most, is only a game,
Life's short and cloud will soon be rain,
Quench the thirsts and fill the creeks
Be ready to flow and vaporize again.

11-02-07

(This is an old piece of writing I found somewhere hidden on my computer. I had written this on 11th February 2007, the day Guruji gave me the name Pushp Dant. It's so emotional, and so precious!)

This is to describe that day… the turning point… the day of dreams come true… dream of many lifetimes… the only wish in life… in this life, previous lives, and any other lives I might still have to take…

I was with Him yesterday… for the whole day. Being very close.. sat at his feet about an hour. Although I still wish I had no hesitations at that time, and I had touched his feet, pressed his legs, put my head in his laps, loved him, held him, consumed him… got consumed by him... Dissolved in Him...

Minus that regret, it was the most beautiful day of my life. And i think its gonna only be better. Aaah.. what words shall I use to describe that joy. Just that I could give my life, and lives, to get moments like these. :) :) :) :) Guruji I love you, and I am going to love you only more…

It started early morning on 11 February 2007. He came on 10^th night, and had a flight to take early morning on 11^th. We went to see him early morning around 6. His flight was at 7, which probably had gotten delayed, and he came out around 7.00-7.30. I was sitting in a corner; others (very few of them.. only 7-8) were sitting everywhere. He came, probably noticed me, and went on to see others. And when he turned to go back, then as if he knew that I was there all the time since he was in his bedroom, he looked at me, pressed my cheek (left one :) ), and looked as if I was the only one he is interested in, in the whole world at that moment.

And then the whole day long fun started. Events which made my life, and that which would be embedded in my memory for ever... Pushpadant........

I can't not acknowledge the contribution of Seema ji at this point. A candle needs a source to be lit. She has been my guiding light and spirit. Whatever I could ever do for her, will always be less. Grateful, always...

Wisdom from Sri Sri

I am not talking about Guruji’s blog here, or about what he has said or written. I am talking about the wisdom that one so effortlessly obtains by just observing him - even lightly! The little things about his behavior, his ways of dealing with people and situations, his jokes and ability to joke… a sincere seeker, at the apt moment, could probably obtain the Highest Knowledge just by observing him without exchanging a single word with him! Knowledge seems to abundantly flow around him.

There are things one could learn from any other accomplished person also, but with Guruji, there’s a difference. The difference is obvious, yet easier felt than explained. The unspoken sense of love, wisdom and effortlessness around him can’t be found anywhere around a materialistically accomplished person.

Just few days back I spent another beautiful 2 days around him. I for sure am one of the most fortunate ones on the planet to have such opportunities, even though I personally believe it’s not necessary to be physically close to him to “know” him. My work takes me there, but Guru’s existence, really speaking, is much beyond just the physical proximity. “Longing” is very important to “know” him. And maintaining the “longing” when physically near him, needs sharp skill (or an uncontrollable heart as in my case). A different level of delusion operates around him.

The ease with which he walks amongst an anxious crowd of devotees is mind-boggling. One Master, 5 minutes and a thousand devotees… thousand thoughts, hundreds of letters & flowers, and he sees it all. Before I turned full-time, I always used to wonder, as another devotee in the crowd, how he always managed to spot me, exchange life-time worth of a loving glance, and resolve my feelings and questions in such a short fraction of time.

Standing on the other side, it’s impossible to fathom how it all happens even while you are yourself struggling to find walking space. A group of volunteers were trying to make a protective chain around him by holding hands in a circle, so that the crowd wouldn’t fall on him. And he said, “it’s ok, there’s no need to do this”. When he said that, there were at least 100 people within a radius of 5 feet around him. And while saying that he had the same ease and calm on his face as he had when he was sitting on the sofa upstairs with just 5 people around him. Not an iota of anxiety or haste. He wanted to meet everyone, and be available to everyone, and probably speak with everyone if time permitted.

If “Love” were to be embodied, I have no doubt how it would have looked like! Each moment of gratitude is so precious!